Friday, December 21, 2012

Moving Mountains

And I will make my mountains into level paths for them. The highways will be raised above the valleys. – Isaiah 49:11
Y’all. God is so good! All the time.

Let me start back at Monday.  I went for a whole battery of tests: bone scan, several CT scans, MRI.  It was a LONG and draining day, both physically and mentally. Probably more mental than physical.  These tests would tell us where else the cancer had spread to.

On Tuesday, we were to meet with the doctors to map out a treatment plan.  I dreaded this day. I felt like this was when it was going to become really real.  I didn’t want to hear a prognosis or survival rates or any of that.  I didn’t want to hear them tell me spots had been found anywhere else.  I just didn’t want to go.  But we went.  Burge, my dad and myself.

Well, God leveled some mountains that day. First off, the cancer has not spread! Hallelujah! One mountain down. We were almost giddy just hearing that! Then we met the “team” of doctors, and their recommendation is to treat the tumor first, then do surgery and end with radiation.  Treatment plan in place, another mountain down! But then, my chemotherapy oncologist mentioned a clinical trial that I qualified for.  Would I be interested in hearing about it? Sure! Why not? This trial uses drugs that are proven to treat my specific type of cancer, but they are not the traditional "chemo” drugs.  Without the traditional “chemo” side effects.  As in, no hair loss! We didn’t give an answer right away, but here was a mountain that I was prepared and willing to climb, and God was offering to level it for me anyway!

Y’all. All three of us left that appointment so encouraged! I can’t even describe it.  Or explain it.  The peace that passes all understanding. Yes, I still have cancer.  It’s still very serious, and we still have a long, hard road.  But it was almost as if God had given us just a little glimpse of His plan.  All we could handle right now. And it is SO GOOD!

So I went yesterday and had a port placed where I will receive my treatments.  I also signed the consent forms for the clinical trial. We knew that to be part of the trial, I would have to have another biopsy before we could start, and as much as I dreaded it, I was prepared for it. The research coordinator had scheduled the biopsy for the next available date, which was January 9.  A little disappointing, but at this point, I realize that God can work things out so much better than my finite mind can, so I accepted it.  We started praying that God would open another appointment sooner.

And God was prepared to knock another mountain down on our behalf.  The coordinator called yesterday afternoon and said that they could do the biopsy Monday morning.  On Christmas Eve! I could also have the required EKG that day, and my first treatment is scheduled for December 31!  Over a week ahead of the original schedule!  God is SO GOOD!

I know there has been a lot of discussion lately about God’s role in the bad things that happen in this world.  I’m not going to get into a debate about that here, because I don’t have all the answers and I don’t claim to.  I can only speak to my own experience.  And that is that GOD IS GOOD.  ALL THE TIME. Yes, bad things happen.  We live in a fallen world, full of sin.  Bad stuff happens.  To everyone. We can thank Adam and Eve and our own sinful nature for that.  But there is nothing that happens that can’t be used to bring glory to God.  I know this because I have seen it.  I am living it.  God is faithful when everyone else has turned their back.  He is everywhere, all the time.  There is nothing that we can go through, no problem that we can face that He is not the answer to.  Period.  The end. 
You are good, and what You do is good; teach me Your decrees. – Psalm 119:68

6 comments:

  1. In tears. SOOO thankful it has not spread! Praising God with you guys!! And so encouraged to read this tonight. Continuing to pray for total healing! Will you be coming to Bham for treatments? Would love to come sit with you one day. Merry Christmas to you guys. Love you!!

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  2. Wonderful news!!Your story brought tears to my eyes and gave me cold chills! It is so inspiring! Praying for you and your family! God Bless You!

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  3. This is all such great news. I am still so shocked over the news that I haven't really known what to say. I am praying for you though and for your sweet family and I know you will pull through this.

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  4. Gina, you are all in my prayers!! God is with you every step of this journey. You are truly an amazing person. I'm a phone call away if you need anything! Love y'all!!

    Love, Saprina

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  5. You have been on my mind a great deal since I heard about your diagnosis. I'm happy to hear that you are facing this challenge head on with a winning attitude. Both you and Burge are strong in your faith, share an undeniable love for each other, your children and for life. These things will empower you to conquer this! Your in my thoughts and more importantly my prayers. If I can do anything to make this easier for you please don't hesitate to ask.
    Love you guys,
    Michelle

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  6. Gina, Im so happy that ur getting good news. Ive been wanting to call and check on u but didnt wanna bring it up if u didnt feel like talking. Im praying for yall and im here for ya :).....Mechelle

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